It was a good week.
It's so nice to catch up with a friend. I haven't seen my best friend in over a month, and to be with her again was like going home again after living in another continent. She's my home.
This is a friend of mine that I've recently reconnected with. She's such a great person. She gives fantastic advice, too.
Having friends is one of the greater things in life.
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I had nothing to do this weekend. There was nothing on TV, no friends to call and or hang out with, no homework, nothing in particular to do. So, I wandered aimlessly into the attic of my dad's house, and I found a box of old photo negatives. I flipped through strip after strip that was in the box, holding them up to the window to see them clearly. When I got to the bottom of the box, there were two or three small containers with cards displaying a single photo.
They were so odd, because they were almost like a negative, but when you held them up to light, they had their proper colors. I took some pictures of my favorites, although there were many, many that I liked.
I thought this last one was so cute, his shirt has a hot dog on it wearing a bow tie!
So you know how I told you about Ralph? (hahah why on earth did I pick that name?)
Apparently, my friend doesn't even like him. Like, not at all. She likes some other dude with huge ears. Thank goodness for that. The other good thing is that I think he might like me, like forealsies. The only thing is, I'm not very good at the whole relationship thing. I've got this though. I'll figure it out lol.
Apparently, my friend doesn't even like him. Like, not at all. She likes some other dude with huge ears. Thank goodness for that. The other good thing is that I think he might like me, like forealsies. The only thing is, I'm not very good at the whole relationship thing. I've got this though. I'll figure it out lol.
(I hate typing this all out because it all sounds normal in my head, but when I type it out knowing that anyone can read it, I feel so stupid! Haha, I hope I'm not the only one.)
I'm just glad that I can like him without there being any strings attached to my friends; I don't feel so guilty for it anymore.
I also recently bought the new Coldplay album, "Mylo Xyloto." It is absolutely fantastic. It's got the chaotic, yet well put together sounds that you're used to, but reinvented in a beautiful way. It makes me feel very alive. I personally think it's their best album yet. My personal favorite is "Every Teardrop is a Waterfall," but I really like this one, too.
Hey guys! I've had a pretty uneventful week, which isn't entirely out of the ordinary. Hopefully everyone's had a more exciting week than I did!
So, apparently, my friend DOES actually like the kid I like,(let's call him ralph to avoid confusion) and I mean she really likes him. So that technically means I'm not allowed to like ralph, because she basically owns him now. I love her to death, but I really hate stuff like this with girls. The really annoying thing is that she's the kind of girl that will never tell ralph she likes him or make a move or anything, and she's also the type that doesn't get over a guy for a LONG time. So I basically have to forget about it, because I think my friends are more important to me than a boy, and I'll get over him soon enough.... Hopefully. :x
Incidentally, I'm having a sleepover with her tonight, which should be fun, because I usually don't hang out with anyone ever since my best friend moved away. It should be fun, I'm just hoping she doesn't talk about ralph too much.
I also have plans to go trick or treating this monday with three of my other friends. I'm really excited, because I LOVE Halloween. I'm going as a zombie, hopefully I get to take some pictures of us for you guys to see!
Yay for not being socially awkward!!
I really advise you to listen to this song, it's absolutely fantastic.
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Have a great weekend!
Hey guys!
I'm so happy, I'm finally getting used to my new camera! I'm so content with how well it works, it produces such lovely photos. The only problem I'm having is trouble using the self-timer when it's on a tripod; it's difficult to focus. I'll figure it out, though.
Another thing I really like is it has such a great ability to take pictures with Bokeh. (see below) It's really automatic for the camera, and it makes a really interesting photo. If you have a DSLR camera, you should try this to get a really cool Bokeh effect!
There are so many beautiful girls that I know. Whether I know them from piczo or tumblr or real life, there are just so many truly gorgeous people that I've seen and become instantly envious of, one way or another. I see the ways they do their hair or makeup or dress and I think to myself, "Hey, I could pull that off." Then I get up and look in the mirror, and remember that I can't because my hair is too curly, or my face isn't shaped right, or my body doesn't look good in those kinds of clothes. And then I start to hate myself for it because I start thinking about how I'll never be beautiful like they are, and people won't like me because I'm not like them, and I start thinking way too much.
Maybe it's just stupid teenage insecurity and I'll get over it, but I just thought I'd bring up the point of what I'm saying for someone to hear. Every girl that I've met is beautiful in some way or another. Whether she is conventionally beautiful and everyone agrees with it and wishes they were her, or she's unconventionally beautiful and you have to look hard to find it or it goes unnoticed. Every single girl is beautiful.
I really hope that other people think this, that I'm not the only one, because it would be reassuring to think that maybe, sometimes, there's a girl that has class with me, or has randomly walked by me in public or recognizes me from the internet that sees me and thinks, "Wow, she's beautiful." That would be great to think.
I don't know. Maybe I'm thinking too much.
Sorry for such a serious post. I hope everyone has a lovely week!
Sigh. I just feel ugh. you know? I don't really feel like doing anything, at all. I've been in such an awful mood lately. I don't know how to explain it, and you probably don't really care, but I'll try. If I was someone else, and I knew me, I don't think I would want to be my friend. I'm just sort of starting to hate myself, I guess. I'm not going to waste my time complaining, nobody likes a complainer, right?
I don't know, I think I'll get over it. Hopefully.
On the flipside, however, there's this kid. He's really asdfghjkl;nfsg. It's kind of silly, really. He's really cute, just everything he does and says is just .. gah, there's no other way to describe it than just to randomly tap all over the keyboard. The only downside is that my one friend says he's "attractive." I can't disagree, and she did say she doesn't really like him, but that's rocky territory, you know.
Hah, I'm such a teenager.
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